Celibacy is not for me

It occurs to me when I think how I relate to God that it's far more important how he relates to me. When I see how he relates to me, it just makes me go 'wow, you do think of just about everything don't you?'.
I get wistful at times that I'm married with kids when I tend to be a lousy mother and an even worse wife. I persistently think I would have made a much better celibate because of the perks that come with celibacy, the ability to make deep lasting relationships, the ability to concentrate or spend time developing thoughts, working, being deeply involved and committed. Then it finally dawned on me that I would have made a quite miserable celibate and not because of sex.

Okay, I'm latin and yes very passionate but once you have God, sex is ...well ... passe. It's good and I love my husband, but I also understand that exercising our marital rights is not the ultimate good, only God is. A heathen would never say such a thing but seriously once you have God, you don't want to go back, ever. God is really that good, better actually! If you haven't fostered a relationship with God, you should give it a try. God will leave you breathless.

Celibacy has its perks

I don't know how sluts do it. Is that politically correct? I don't care. I was watching the Big Bang Theory when Penny was asked if she was a slut for having slept with thirty some partners and it made me pause. I don't get it. I mean I've been married to the same man for 16 years and its only been with him that we renew our marriage covenant. THE SAME GUY. Okay I feel a need to point that out because again, I don't know how a slut does it. I mean we've been doing the whole horizontal mambo, the beast with two backs, you know for sixteen years with no one else but each other so why is it we still don't have this figured out?
This is the, I don't know, umpteenth time I've had a urinary tract infection, and I know what its from and I can trace back to exactly how I got it.

So as I sit in my Dr's office it occurs to me celibacy has some really phenomenal perks! Unfortunately, I was not called to celibacy even though many times I wish I had been. Its not because of this infection. I just think celibacy has some really phenomenal perks and to be totally honest, I'm just a wee bit jealous of my celibate friends.

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